I have thought about what to write about when I posted these pictures, but the truth is there are just no words to express what this sweet little family is going through right now. About six months ago Stacia emailed me and made an appointment for her baby boy that was due on Christmas Day. I have photographed Tristan and Gracie before and was excited to meet the newest member of their family.
A few days after Christmas I got an email from Stacia that made my heart sink, her sweet baby boy had been born still. She gave me a link to her blog and as I sat and read about baby Lucas, I couldn’t stop crying. I just can’t even imagine. Here’s a clip from Stacia’s blog….
“This has by far been the most heartbreaking, yet sacred and precious experience of my life. I am not typically one to share moments that are this close to me, and for the past couple of weeks I have not intended to, but I am so proud to be Lucas’ mommy and I want to give everyone the chance to see my beautiful baby boy.
Lucas Steven Mann was born still on December 15, 2009, due to unknown causes (SADS). I had the amazing opportunity to hold his perfect little body for 2 days after he was born. I miss him so bad that it physically hurts, but I know that I will always have those precious moments that I was able to spend with him, and he will always be in my heart.
We miss and love you, Lucas.”
She wanted to keep her appointment to get pictures of her older two, and here’s what she wrote in her email. It has stuck with me.
“I am completely heartbroken. But I have realized how fragile and precious every moment is with my kids, and that the memories and tiny details captured by pictures is priceless. I don’t want to forget their looks or personalities at any point in their life.”
Stacia, I hope these pictures bring you a little piece of joy at this trying time in your life. I hope you can feel everyone’s love and prayers, especially mine, my heart is breaking for you. I’m so sorry. Tristan and Gracie are more beautiful than words, you have some very special kids, I hope I was able to capture them the way you want to remember them. In this first picture they are holding these little lambs that remind them of their baby brother, he has one too. Thank you Stacia for letting me share your story, there are others going through this right now and you are a huge example to many.
These are some molds of Lucas’ hands. Gracie knew they were special and held them so delicately.
Song by Selah, “I Will Carry You”
by skye johansen
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